Don't know..

I have recently thought of closing down this blog. One of the reasons being I don't have time to update, and whenever I feel like writing a post, it will be too personal. Also, I DO NOT HAVE ANY COMMENTS! No comments means nobody is reading, nobody is reading means I don't need to write anymore. Writing a diary serves the same purpose if nobody is reading. But then, I feel that there are some friends who don't stay close to me need updates about my life, for example, friends who live in Australia. :P Don't know, I'll just keep this blog, but yes, there will be less posts.

I recently feel like a clown. Everybody sees me as an entertainer, a person who is so amusing. I am seen as a person who tells A LOT of dirty jokes, a person who is happy-go-lucky. But will anybody understand what pain I go through inside? How many people are there who truly understands what I want and strive for? How many people understand why I make such decisions? How many people understand why the hell I want to graduate early, when I can stay back and take fun classes while enjoying JPA's allowance?

I am recently watching a Taiwanese series, called Bai4 Quan3 Nv3 Wang2, it's lame, but it's kinda funny. I could use a good laugh these days. Taiwanese series always leaves people with the feeling that how wonderful falling in love can be, and that how perfect can a love life can turn out to be. What rubbish.

But still..Sigh..Don't know..

感恩

感恩曾经让我失望的人，让我学习如何站起来。
感恩曾经让我生气的人，让我学习宽宏大量。
感恩曾经利用我的人，让我懂得我还有替别人做事的能力。
感恩曾经讨厌我的人，让我懂得我在他心目中，还扮演着蛮重要的角色。
感恩曾经伤害我的人，让我从中长大了。
感恩所有曾经爱我的人，让我知道什么叫作幸福。

Overwhelmed...

I've been trying to write something either about my winter trip or some other stuff for the past week, but I failed to. I'm just too busy.

You may ask me why I'm so busy when the semester just started. Well, school work is part of it, but not entirely. Cell Biology and Molecular Genetics of Bacteria are the two classes I'm taking for my last term in University of Michigan. Although only two classes, the readings are a lot. I really hope I can at least get a B for both of them.

Next, GRE is on February 21. But I haven't really studied for it. :( I also dunno how.

Then, I have stuff from Malaysian Cultural Night, Tzu Ching, Chinese New Year...etc... And the worse thing is, I'm still thinking of cakes and cookies to bake for Chinese New Year!!!!! @.@

I'm just overwhelmed. Sigh.

Winter Trip - Day 1&2 - MA

I have too many pictures for the trip, and the worst thing is, when I browse through them, I feel like posting all of them here! -_- I was thinking of doing the pictures according to days of my trip, and also the states I was in, so enjoy the pictures. :)

Nothing happened on the first day. We reached about 9pm and had pizza at Sue Yen's place. She had a Biochemistry exam the next morning, so she had to study and I decided to read Sue Yen's "The Tales of Beedle the Bard". Though I finished the book in a day, once again, I was impressed with JK Rowling's creativity.

The next morning, me and Shann roamed around Brandeis University while Sue Yen was having her exam.

One of the VERY few photos we took at Brandeis.

After that, we headed to Boston's Chinatown for lunch at Penang!!!! :D :D (and an infinite number of smiley faces). We had Nasi Lemak, Char Kuey Tiao, Hokkien Char Mee, Cendol, and not to forget my all time favorite, Mee Kari. Even the waiter was in disbelief how the three of us could eat so much.

Favorite Mee Kari. :D

Then, we took the train to visit MIT, one of the schools that rejected me. -_- I know, I tak cukup isi.

Boston's skyline at the back, and also Charles River, and Sue Yen on the left. I put this photo just to embarrass myself, because I look like a bald clown.

Note the tiny words saying "MASSACHVSETTS INSTITVTE OF TECHNOLOGY". I don't know why they purposely put V instead of U. Maybe it's classy to have spelling errors. :P

The famous Simmons Hall. It's the residence hall that students usually jump down from to commit suicide. Note that MIT is among the schools in US that has the highest suicidal rates.

Harvard, after MIT. It's a free bus ride away.

The book store. The only place on campus with the word "Harvard" that I can find.

Huey Shann pretending that she's a student in a Harvard classroom.

Harvard's library, which reminds me of Angell Hall at University of Michigan, Ann Arbor. Don't you think so? :D

An archway that says "Enter To Grow In Wisdom".

After that, we wasted some money and time at Harvard Square, then we took a train back to Waltham, where Sue Yen's school is. So that was Day 2.

You know, when I visited MIT and Harvard, I have a feeling that I want to go study there. It's a feeling like I want to buy Adidas and Nike clothes, you know? Like they are so sought after by the whole world. But the only difference is I can buy Adidas and Nike anytime, but I can't buy my way into MIT, this is the part that hurts.

New Look for the New Year

Don't you think my profile picture looks good? :D Just random. While in the process of waiting for the bug bites to go away (thank you for all the concernS :P), I just realized that 2008 is coming to an end. This year was surprisingly fast, and thus my face in the picture. Haha. Okay, I felt the same way at the end of every year.

Notice that I changed my blog title and the description for it, because I feel that people should get to know me more and the way I think. I found out that my thinking is in disagreement with a lot of people, thus resulting in my frustration, and to some extent, my tears. I might touch on some controversial issues in the future, but look beyond that, I might be trying to convey a message to you readers. Try to understand why I think in this particular way, and why I need the shower cubicle to be scrubbed at least once every two weeks. I know, the paint on the floor is peeling off due to this.

I might be very UNfashionable, sometimes a hygiene freak, but read more about what I write, and you may realize things that you never know about me, though you have known me for years.

Okay, enough of useless information. Wish you all a great 2009 ahead, and hope that everybody grows up to become a better person everyday. :) Life is short, so enjoy!

Sneak Preview

Whenever somebody sees me in Ann Arbor or on MSN after my New York trip, the first thing they will ask me is “How was your trip?” And my first reaction will be “BAD~!”

So you, reading my blog, will ask “How bad? OR Why bad?”

So I’ll let you see how bad it is.

This only came up a day after I reached Ann Arbor. I panicked. I scratched myself like a dog with fleas. No clinic was open on Saturday afternoon, so I rushed to the pharmacy at Kroger. The pharmacist stepped as far away from my as she could, told me it was scabies, and asked me to shower with lice shampoo, wash all my clothes and linen with hot water, and buy a spray that kills lice eggs for the apartment.

I came back and checked Wikipedia for Scabies. I totally freaked out. It says that it’s a parasite that burrows into your skin, and then lay eggs in there. *vomit* Scabies usually infect homeless people and people with HIV!!!

So I used the lice shampoo and hoping things will improve. Unfortunately, I couldn’t sleep that night, and woke up to a even worse condition. The spots spread to my face!!!!

I couldn’t tolerate the itchiness anymore and who cares about how much they charge, I went straight to the emergency room at the hospital, and thus, I got this.

Thank Guan Yin Ma that it’s not scabies, they are just bedbugs, special bedbugs the doctor told me. *shrugs* She prescribed steroids for me to apply on the skin and some pills to take. Both stop the itchiness, but won’t make the spots go away. At least I can sleep tonight, fingers crossed.

It all happened just because we wanted a cheap hotel room in New York. We ended up staying in Carter Hotel right in the middle of Times Square. It was $80 per night for four of us, and we stayed there for 5 nights. I bet the bedbugs had a helluva good feast. The place was SO dirty, bugs were crawling around, and there were mice, by the way. Never mind, I’ll assume that I donated blood to them. :D

Anyway, this is just a sneak preview of the trip, more updates will ensue, given that I’m not lazy. :P

Leaving Again

I will be gone for the week, this time, to Boston - New York - Connecticut - New York - Washington DC!! :D The main purpose of this trip is to meet up with long-time-no-see friends Hui Ean and Sue Yen. And not to forget, my BEST FRIEND, JAY CHOU!!!! Haha. He will be performing in Connecticut this time, so we bought $88 tickets to go catch him.

Will fly at 5pm today and will be back around the same time on the 26th of December. I know, by that time, nobody will be in Ann Arbor anymore. :(

Well, hope everyone have a safe and fun trip. See you guys soon.