Five Years Ago, I Would Not Know That...

my dreams to study in the States would come true.
I would give up my dream of wanting to study in Stanford.
I would have the guts to take the SAT, not to say even GRE.
I would achieve such outstanding results during my secondary school career.
falling in love hurt me so much.
I would meet so many new friends and new people.
I like to play badminton.
I can actually cook.
he would have left me behind.
he has actually inspired me to become a great scientist.
I would want to do research for all my life.
I would actually join Tzu Chi after I come to the States.
living in the States isn't as glamorous as everybody thinks.
I love staying in Malaysia so much.
I would give up my dreams for the sake of my family.
I would cry so much.
sleeping early and waking up early is not as hard as I thought.
Tzu Chi really influenced my thoughts so much and my thinking really matured. (Not doing any adverts here, but this is the truth)
there are actually so many people that care so much for me.
I would drift so far away from my secondary school friends.
I have such a great family.
I would write a blog.
I would actually regret not spending more time with him.
how life is like without talking on the phone every night.
how is it like to be contented with life.
I would be grateful to all the things I have.
I would be thankful to all the people I have come across in life.
I would stop losing temper uncontrollably.
I would become the person I am today.

There are a lot of things that I took five years to realize and learn. I regretted a lot. Talking about regret, a person shouldn't regret what he has done, instead, he should regret about what he has not yet done in his life. Have you actually sat down and thought about things you were thinking and wishing of five years ago? Did all of them come true? Do you have any regrets?

The 6am Laundry

I think people must think that we are freaks, waking up at 6am to do laundry. That's how desperately me and Shann needed to do laundry. Morning would be the only time that we can use 5 out of the 6 machines available I guess. By the way, I slept at 1am the night before, so I have broken my "highly disciplined" routine of sleeping at 12am and waking up at 7am. I never knew that sleeping early and waking up early equals to such high levels of discipline. A friend told me that he was impressed that I can achieve this kind of life. I personally think that to make yourself sleep and wake up early is way easier than studying for any midterms or tests. :D I used to be a really night person for like five years, meaning, I would only allow myself to go sleep after 2am. Because, I used to believe that sleeping that late can allow me to have more time to do work. I found out it was a lie, because 90% of the time, I stayed up either to talk on the phone, or to chat on MSN.

Back to my laundry story. We finished laundry at about 8.30, just in time to catch the 8.50 bus to Willow Tree Apartments. Today, Siew Gee was kind enough to lend me her car, so that I could drive to Briarwood and also Meijer. Did shopping and eating, came back to my apartment at about 3 something. Did quite a lot of stuff actually, but all money-wasting ones. Haha. I have yet to start my school work, which includes readings and lab reports. -_-"

Understanding

I feel that not many people understand me, maybe there are the rare few, but still MAJORITY don't. They never understand what I do, and the reasons behind my actions. Or maybe I shouldn't blame them, because I never told them these stuff. Or maybe I shouldn't expect too much from other people, as the more I hope for, the more I disappoint myself. A lot of people think I am a happy-go-lucky person, in reality, I'm just the opposite. A lot of people don't dare to tell me secrets, because they think I will announce their secrets to the world. I am exactly opposite of what you think I am.

You know, best friends who understand you to the extent that he/she knows how many wisdom tooth you currently have, are so rare. They are in the verge of extinction. I am not complaining, as I have a nice number of best friends who take care of me, and a nice number of friends who can talk to me whenever I needed them. In all, I am just talking trash in this post.

Before I was 21, I have a very big problem with myself --- I thought I don't have any good traits, as in, none. I thought I was a total failure, I get depressed for no reason, I don't like my life, I study as hard as possible, vainly thinking I can get into Stanford. I think my brain grew up a little now. :D I think I have good traits too. Haha. Good traits which not even my bestest friends could tell me. I won't say it out loud here, but it's up to you to decide what good traits I have. I shouldn't complain so much about life after all. I have A LOT of things that people crave for during their entire lifetime. I have almost everything anybody can ask for, well, minus some "minor complications". But, my point is, I want to tell myself that, I should be grateful for the things I own right now. 21 years is quite a short time to have acquired this level of "success". :D Or maybe I too easily contented.... Maybe....

Updates! :D

I know, you are waiting for this post for a very long time. :D My blog took a vacation to the Maldives Islands, apologies. (and I know this is not funny) Ok, back to the point, I will put up updates about me and my life for the past three months. And for the sake of your convenience and my laziness, I will do this in point form. I bet any kind of format will be better than nothing, RIGHT? Haha.

1. I just realized that a lot of people read my blog. I sincerely ask those PP8LM (People 8 Like Me) to please post some comments after reading my blog, OK?

2. I realized I really like to read people's blog. It's very entertaining especially when I'm eating lunch at my study desk and I have nowhere to lay my eyes on. SO, I've made up my mind to update my blog more often so I can entertain other people too. (I sound like a clown)

3. OK, real updates. We shall start from summer at home. Ok, I will post a few rare photos of my family members and good friends back at home. First stop, Langkawi. Near my hometown, expensive enough, and all my family members except me adore that place.

Eldest sister, younger brother, younger sister and ME.
At THE Loaf, Mahathir's bakery aka the ultimate place to waste money.

The kind of complete family photo, minus my younger sister taking that picture.
Too many people to intro, but I can kindly furnish you with the info that the lady on the most left is my mum, and next to her is my youngest aunt, aka Ah Kor. :)

The cash-eating resort, THE Berjaya Resort of Langkawi. Individual chalets on stilts. They are designed in such a way so that you WILL flush money down the sea, and so they can collect it.

Ok, enough of that place. We shall move on.

4. I went to Putra Medical Center (the most famous hospital in Alor Star) to work with Fiona's dad (a cardiologist) for about four days. Then went to Lam Wah Ee Hospital in Penang (four times the size of PMC) to work with my cousin's friend, a consultant neurologist for four days too. Conclusion: I changed my mind. I won't go medical school anymore. I just can't stand seeing the sufferings there.

5. I went to Tzu Ching camp in Penang. Absolutely loved it. Sorry, no photos here.

6. Next stop, went to KL to spend about a week with my bestest friend. :)

From left, Pei Jing, aka the used-to-look-like-Wang Leehom-friend, Sang Ye, aka my bestest friend, and me, whom I think needs no introduction. At Starbucks at OneU.

7. Rest of the days, I stayed at home, became a driver, driving my mum and aunt all around town. We went to Tesco at least twice a week, always checking out the "Reduced Price To Clear" items (meaning they are nearly expired and they are selling it for 90% off the normal price). Those are usually juices and yogurts. :D Also, played wii and badminton almost everyday, trying IN VAIN to slim down.

8. End of my happy days. I came back to the states on the 27th of August. Attended the Los Angeles Tzu Ching camp. Not as good as the Penang one, but still, fabulous.

9. Start of class. My schedule for this term is pretty empty. Class for about two hours per day. Then go lab and take care of my worms. Apart from that, I am the head chef of my apartment, where I serve Malaysian food ala cincai (quoted from Sue Yen) everyday for my roommates. Also, I am FORCING myself to study for my GRE test, which I haven't decided the date I want to take the test. :P

OK, I think that's all I have to say for now. Hopefully I have more stuff to share soon. :D Hope you enjoyed reading.