I'm sorry to those who gave me advice, which I ignored.
I'm sorry to those who opposed to my way of thinking, which I obviously ignored.
I'm sorry to those who said I was stupid, which I again ignored.
I'm sorry to those who looked up upon me, but I left them disappointed.
I'm sorry to those who put hopes on me, but I didn't perform as I should.
I'm sorry to spend so much money, which I didn't deserve.
I'm sorry to be so naive and rash, which I didn't realize before this.
I'm sorry to have created this mess.
I'm sorry, because I just resigned.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Salted Peanuts
Sitting on the quite uncomfortable seat of a MAS flight from Alor Star to Kuala Lumpur, I was munching away with two packets of salted peanuts in my hand. The salted peanuts made me think of my father. He used to work in KL, coming back only once every weekend. Everytime he takes the MAS plane, which is the only airline operating in Malaysia at that time, he would bring back at least a packet of peanuts for each of us kids. Although it wasn't any big of a deal, it was one of the memories I shared with my father during the days I grew up.
My father was a strong character, who never complained about the hardship he went through. He worked in KL since I was a year old and continued until I was in secondary school. After that, he went on to India, and also to Qatar, to supervise some jobs. Never I hear him complain about being lonely. That was the sacrifice my father made, to ensure that we have enough food to eat and clothes to put on. He went through the sweat and blood, the loneliness of living abroad, the sacrifice of not being able to spend so much time with his wife, kids and family. He was the hero of the family. Now that my father has accomplished so much, and brought much luxuries to my life, I ask myself, what sacrifice did I make? And what sacrifice do I plan to make? What exactly is the purpose of living this very life? What should I do so my father didn't work his butt off for nothing?
I've been sheltered from the wind and the rain all throughout my 22 years of life. I reckon that I'm the one who can withstand the most physical pain among us siblings, but what about emotional pain? I've been producing a lot of whining and complaints recently, and also signs of not being able to let go. I'm not handling problems like I should. I'm not as matured as I thought.
Quoted from the Duke University website:"Graduate work takes time and patience, a fierce commitment, and the willingness to make many personal sacrifices."
Will I be able to acheive my dreams? How much do I have to sacrifice?
My father was a strong character, who never complained about the hardship he went through. He worked in KL since I was a year old and continued until I was in secondary school. After that, he went on to India, and also to Qatar, to supervise some jobs. Never I hear him complain about being lonely. That was the sacrifice my father made, to ensure that we have enough food to eat and clothes to put on. He went through the sweat and blood, the loneliness of living abroad, the sacrifice of not being able to spend so much time with his wife, kids and family. He was the hero of the family. Now that my father has accomplished so much, and brought much luxuries to my life, I ask myself, what sacrifice did I make? And what sacrifice do I plan to make? What exactly is the purpose of living this very life? What should I do so my father didn't work his butt off for nothing?
I've been sheltered from the wind and the rain all throughout my 22 years of life. I reckon that I'm the one who can withstand the most physical pain among us siblings, but what about emotional pain? I've been producing a lot of whining and complaints recently, and also signs of not being able to let go. I'm not handling problems like I should. I'm not as matured as I thought.
Quoted from the Duke University website:"Graduate work takes time and patience, a fierce commitment, and the willingness to make many personal sacrifices."
Will I be able to acheive my dreams? How much do I have to sacrifice?
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I'm Still Alive
Yes, I am still alive. A lot happened during the past month, but I just didn't have the mood to write anything here. Up until today, I'm officially employed by UMBI for a month and 2 days. I like my colleagues a lot. Friendly, and they can joke and laugh like I do. :P Haha. The people are nice. But I wouldn't want to comment on the working environment. Hehe. Oh ya, they are so obssessed with Facebook here, which kinda annoys me.
I miss badminton and volleyball dearly. :( Pity can't find any kaki here.
Ok, I'm going to admit it, I miss Ann Arbor. Or maybe the people and the life there. Shrugs.
Condolences to my best friend, I understand how it hurts to have loved and lost. Stay strong. I know you will take it like a man.
I miss badminton and volleyball dearly. :( Pity can't find any kaki here.
Ok, I'm going to admit it, I miss Ann Arbor. Or maybe the people and the life there. Shrugs.
Condolences to my best friend, I understand how it hurts to have loved and lost. Stay strong. I know you will take it like a man.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Back Home, but Leaving Soon Again
Went for a ten day trip to Taiwan. Spent a total of USD 400 including air tickets! :) But then, got bed bug bites again, as a result of staying in a cheap hostel in Taipei city. Sad.
Within less than a week after the trip, I'm leaving to Cheras, KL already. Got a job offer at Hospital UKM as a research assistant. Part of the job offer, comes with a opportunity to study Masters after three months working.
I know, you will be asking, why UKM? Why not Singapore? Well, Singapore hasn't replied or anything yet. I like the project UKM offered. I feel like staying in Malaysia. So I accepted it. People may start to condemn my stupid decision. I personally think there's no right or wrong choice, it's a matter of how you see things. And remember, if it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger. I bet it will offer me a different experience compared to studying overseas. We'll see.
So here I am, in Malaysia for another 2 years, at least. :)
Within less than a week after the trip, I'm leaving to Cheras, KL already. Got a job offer at Hospital UKM as a research assistant. Part of the job offer, comes with a opportunity to study Masters after three months working.
I know, you will be asking, why UKM? Why not Singapore? Well, Singapore hasn't replied or anything yet. I like the project UKM offered. I feel like staying in Malaysia. So I accepted it. People may start to condemn my stupid decision. I personally think there's no right or wrong choice, it's a matter of how you see things. And remember, if it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger. I bet it will offer me a different experience compared to studying overseas. We'll see.
So here I am, in Malaysia for another 2 years, at least. :)
Monday, July 20, 2009
Updates
Okay, I don't know what to put for the title anymore. So, bear with me.
Nothing much happening to me right now, just badminton and driving around everyday. I've made two friends at badminton. One is a 13 year old girl. There is only 1 girl out of 10 boys there, so she's really happy to see me, cos she has nobody to talk to. Next is a 28 year old girl. She's a State player for Special Sports, because she's deaf and mute. She's a teacher at a special school. I like her, she's nice. And she's really good at badminton too. :)
Talking about badminton, my brother's friend's dad went to play badminton last week. He had a cardiac arrest and died on the spot. 0.0 Well, if it was up to me, I would choose to die like that too, at least I get to die doing something I like.
This Thursday morning, I'm going for a job interview! It's at Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia's Molecular Biology Institute, which is called UMBI for short. Sounds so Duh. Anyways, I applied for research assistant, doing something that I quite like. :) It's the only job I applied to in Malaysia, and the other 10 jobs I applied for in Singapore have no replies. :-/ Maybe I should continue studying..Dunno..We'll see.
Had been to Penang twice, on two separate trips. I ate too much everytime. :( There goes my abs. :P The char kuey tiao is so oily that you can see oil dripping when you pick them up with chopsticks. Ok, kidding. So after the second eating spree, I came back home with food poisoning. Vomit and diarrhea for two days. I did nothing but sleeping and running to the toilet. Uh.
Nothing much happening to me right now, just badminton and driving around everyday. I've made two friends at badminton. One is a 13 year old girl. There is only 1 girl out of 10 boys there, so she's really happy to see me, cos she has nobody to talk to. Next is a 28 year old girl. She's a State player for Special Sports, because she's deaf and mute. She's a teacher at a special school. I like her, she's nice. And she's really good at badminton too. :)
Talking about badminton, my brother's friend's dad went to play badminton last week. He had a cardiac arrest and died on the spot. 0.0 Well, if it was up to me, I would choose to die like that too, at least I get to die doing something I like.
This Thursday morning, I'm going for a job interview! It's at Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia's Molecular Biology Institute, which is called UMBI for short. Sounds so Duh. Anyways, I applied for research assistant, doing something that I quite like. :) It's the only job I applied to in Malaysia, and the other 10 jobs I applied for in Singapore have no replies. :-/ Maybe I should continue studying..Dunno..We'll see.
Had been to Penang twice, on two separate trips. I ate too much everytime. :( There goes my abs. :P The char kuey tiao is so oily that you can see oil dripping when you pick them up with chopsticks. Ok, kidding. So after the second eating spree, I came back home with food poisoning. Vomit and diarrhea for two days. I did nothing but sleeping and running to the toilet. Uh.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Photos!
My best friend these days. They are the new badminton shoes I was talking about in the previous post. The left one is starting to get worn out because of my weird habit of dragging my left foot when I play badminton.
Introducing the latest member of my patung collection. I spent an hour thinking of a name for her, which made me feel like I just did something Wan Ying would do. :P Anyway, some intro. She's a hand-made doll given to me by my best friend, I think it's supposed to be my 22nd birthday present. So, she has two faces. This one is the sexy face, note the cleavage. Her name is 莎莎(Shasha).
Here's the other face, a more kampung and 乖 face. Her name is 安安 (AnAn). She's with yellow baby Pooh, if you still remember him. :)
Finally, the most important picture. My new hair with my ever so pretty face. MUAHAHA. Actually my hair's not so new anymore. It has been about three weeks since I got the haircut.Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Updates
I'm supposed to take pictures of my new hairstyle, and also stuff that I've recently bought, but well, I'm too lazy. I've even borrowed a camera from my sister, and also planned on what pictures to take. I guess the weather has just make me even lazier and sluggish.
1. Went to the optometrist. She said my short-sightedness did not increase in power, it's the first time in 14 years I think. What's more, my left eye has gone down 25 degrees in power!
2. Went to the dentist. I had my wisdom tooth surgically removed. Had three stitches. Nobody told me before that it's so painful! >.<
3. Had my first tennis lesson last Thursday. The coach said I'm not bad, just that I keep twisting my wrist like what I do in badminton. That really annoyed him. Looking forward to my second lesson.
4. Paid RM180 for a one month badminton training session. It's 2 hours per day, everyday of the week except Tuesday. The coach is supposed to correct my mistakes and teach me correct footwork. The warm-ups are super duper hard, I'm surprised my asthma did not attack. But then, the price is good and I've nothing much to do at home. I can't complain more. :) Bought a pair of badminton shoes for RM 120, super comfortable, happy with the decision.
5. Re-read all of the Harry Potter books. About to finish the 7th book. Loving Harry Potter even more. By the way, in case you never knew, I had an ambition to marry Harry Potter when I was 13. Note that I don't mean the actor Daniel Radcliffe, just Harry Potter, the fictional character.
6. At last submitted my application to NTU. I applied for a job at UKM as assistant researcher. I reported to JPA too. So now my job is to wait. I might go look at websites of Singaporean companies, I might get a little lucky, who knows. Heh.
7. Still doing translation stuff for Tzu Chi, since I have extra free time. I used to download video episodes to watch before translating, but I can't anymore, since the internet connection here is 10 times slower than that in the States.
8. Before I started badminton, it was at least an hour's exercise everyday for me. I must make my slim down dream come true, which I had since 8 years ago. :P Half an hour on the treadmill, and an hour on Wii Fit.
Well, that's it for now I guess.
1. Went to the optometrist. She said my short-sightedness did not increase in power, it's the first time in 14 years I think. What's more, my left eye has gone down 25 degrees in power!
2. Went to the dentist. I had my wisdom tooth surgically removed. Had three stitches. Nobody told me before that it's so painful! >.<
3. Had my first tennis lesson last Thursday. The coach said I'm not bad, just that I keep twisting my wrist like what I do in badminton. That really annoyed him. Looking forward to my second lesson.
4. Paid RM180 for a one month badminton training session. It's 2 hours per day, everyday of the week except Tuesday. The coach is supposed to correct my mistakes and teach me correct footwork. The warm-ups are super duper hard, I'm surprised my asthma did not attack. But then, the price is good and I've nothing much to do at home. I can't complain more. :) Bought a pair of badminton shoes for RM 120, super comfortable, happy with the decision.
5. Re-read all of the Harry Potter books. About to finish the 7th book. Loving Harry Potter even more. By the way, in case you never knew, I had an ambition to marry Harry Potter when I was 13. Note that I don't mean the actor Daniel Radcliffe, just Harry Potter, the fictional character.
6. At last submitted my application to NTU. I applied for a job at UKM as assistant researcher. I reported to JPA too. So now my job is to wait. I might go look at websites of Singaporean companies, I might get a little lucky, who knows. Heh.
7. Still doing translation stuff for Tzu Chi, since I have extra free time. I used to download video episodes to watch before translating, but I can't anymore, since the internet connection here is 10 times slower than that in the States.
8. Before I started badminton, it was at least an hour's exercise everyday for me. I must make my slim down dream come true, which I had since 8 years ago. :P Half an hour on the treadmill, and an hour on Wii Fit.
Well, that's it for now I guess.
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