Heading Back Home..

It's my turn to go back home at last. :D
Going home to where my family and friends are waiting, and of course not to forget the food.
I don't know whether I am happy or sad, a.k.a. mixed feelings.
Happy + sad + excited + reluctant.
Will reach home on the 26th, which is a Thursday.
This time, it will be our family's big reunion, even my sister from New Zealand steals a chance to go back home. I haven't seen her for like three years.
My cousins from China will be staying for a month at our place in Alor Star.
My schedule is jam-packed for July.
First weekend: Langkawi trip with family.
Second weekend: Going to KL for dentist and to visit my friends. I don't know why, I have a sudden urge to go to Mid Valley.
Third weekend: My uncle asked us to go dinner at Penang for an unknown occasion.
Fourth weekend: I'm attending a Tzu Ching camp at Penang. Will be a new and fun experience for me. :)
Well, this will be a family reunion cum relaxing holiday for me. Will be back in Ann Arbor on the 1st of September. So goodbye Ann Arbor for now. :D

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惊慌失措

我很想发一个帖子，但是我不知道要写些什么。
今早醒来，我突然陷入了惊慌失措的状态。
原因？不晓得。
也许，是因为我昨晚迟睡。
也许，是佩莹的离去。
也许，是天气在搞鬼。
当心已经破碎到不能再破碎的地步时，
我什么都不想做，只想找些东西让自己麻醉。

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I'm not the research type

Recently, I found out that I am not the type that's suitable for research.
I find it harder to get myself to go to lab. Compared to a few months ago, when going to lab is one of the happiest times of the day.
I am spending less and less time in lab each day, going down from 3 hours per day to 30 minutes per day. I guess my lab members noticed too, because whenever I walked into lab, they will look at me as if they never knew me before.
I came up with a few reasons that might have caused my dwindling interest for lab:
1. After six months, I finally realize that lab is boring, though I tried to convince Caryn that it wasn't about a few months ago.
2. My project doesn't need me to spend as much time as the other people's.
3. My professor is starting to ignore me since I am not a part of his grant-applying-project.
4. I start to realize I am more to a medicine person, since part of my professor's everyday activities include staring at other published papers and thinking of ways to either prove that they are wrong, or to come up with better results.
5. I am just plain lazy during spring.
Hopefully I can find out my true interests soon, since graduation is creeping towards me.

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After A Few Eons

At last, after a few hundred thousand years, I have come here to update my blog. Nothing much has been happening lately. I am trying to find time in the midst of everything to study for my Molecular Biology. I may sound busy, but I do not even know what I'm busy about. Just finished three episodes of translation of Da Ai Drama in four days. From there, I found a very meaningful quote that I would like to share:

"花朵需要太陽的溫暖, 才能開花

一個人如果可以帶給另外一個人

如同太陽般的溫暖,

那是非常大的幸福.

那個下午我突然明白了負擔與幸福的差別

最主要的是在看我們用什麼角度去看去感受"

I just came back from playing volleyball after two weeks rest after Midwest Games. Everybody, and of course including me, played so badly. According to Wei Chieh, we really need a coach now. :) By the way, Pei Ying said my cooking has improved since the first time she tasted my cooking. Haha. I have another Molecular Biology exam to go before I am free to go home. Seriously, this is not a hard class at all. It just needs you to concentrate 100% in class, and study the notes. But then, there's always the but. Haha. Also for those who don't know, I have recently changed my mind again. I am thinking of going to medical school. Not in the States of course, but hopefully somewhere near home. I think that's all that is happening to me apart from the super duper hot weather. Yes, I know I'm a boring person. :D

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