Dilemma

I have this serious dilemma since a long time ago and it has been haunting me since.

I DON'T KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD GO TO GRADUATE SCHOOL.

I know I don't need to capitalize every word, but then, it's such a hard decision to make.

Choices are as below:
1) Do PhD in the U.S.
2) Do Masters in the U.S. then go back M'sia to work.
3) Do PhD in Singapore
4) Do PhD in M'sia.
5) Go back M'sia to work right after getting undergraduate degree.

Thinking about this issue makes me sweat a lot, as in, even more than if I go run a hundred rounds at NCRB. I will be graduating April 09, so I need a decision FAST. If I so happen to decide to stay in the states to do my graduate school, I will need to study for my GRE test this spring/summer, which is so so so soon.

I think I burnt part of my brain thinking which path to take.

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平常心

最近做事情，心情平静得多，晚上也比较能入眠。我也不知道为什么。无论如何，是一件好事。：）

今天早上刚刚考了第二次的biochemistry 考试，真的以平常心去考。这可能是我生平中第一次那么冷静的考试。哈哈。我不觉得是我准备得好，但我就是那么平静。两三天后，我们就可以看到我的冷静的效果。希望我也可以平常心地接受我的成绩。哈哈。

难得今天早从科学室回家，趁机会去游个泳吧！星期一还有一个考试，还没开始温习。但是不用紧，平常心。。。 哈哈哈哈~！

为什么？

其实，我不要求什么，只想要有一个答案。

我只想懂为什么。。。