Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Before Thanksgiving...

Tues 11/18
- 417 hw due
Wed 11/19
- finish up as much of fly report as possible so I can ask questions at professor's office hours
Thurs 11/20
- 417 hw due
Fri 11/21
- fly 10 pages report due
- anthro quiz
- Tzu Ching meeting at 6pm
Sat 11/22
- 35 page translation due (chinese-english)
- UMIMSA meeting at 4pm
Mon 11/24
- anthro final 15 page paper due
Tues 11/25
- genetics hw due
- 417 hw due

i.e. I am EXTREMELY busy -_-"

Saturday, November 15, 2008

排球

最近,我又重新爱上了排球。爱看,也爱打,但可惜是自己打得不好。前两天去看我们大学的女子排球队比赛,太好看了。很兴奋,因为球球都打得很好,好久没有那种感觉了。上个星期参加了排球比赛,对手是东南亚国家的学生们,有来至泰国,印尼,越南,以及新加坡的学生。我们输给越南那场是最可惜的,因为我们已23对25输给了他们。而且,重点是最后两个球败在我手中,是因为我的错,我差一点在球场里流下眼泪。但是,都已经属于过去了,我不会在耿耿于怀,反而我应该努力练习自己的球艺。 :)要对我的队友们说声谢谢,那些有拨时间来练习的,我会特别感激你们。我觉得这次就错在我们队员之间不够有默契,多希望我有固定的队员,所以每次练球都可以培养默契,但是真的很难。。。

回想起我十岁就开始打排球了,当时连排球都没有看过。我们的体育老师是我们学校的排球教练,所以他从每个班级挑了两位最高的女孩子,训练我们成为校队。我从四年级到六年级时,是全校最高的学生,当时的男孩子都很怕我。哈哈。十二岁时,我就有现在165公分的高度了,但是从此就没有再长高了。

每个礼拜五我们都会练球,球场是户外的,所以我当时皮肤很黝黑,完全像一个男孩子。哈哈。我曾经去比赛时,对方的球员来问我到底是男还是女,尴尬!以前的教练非常的严格,还记得每次练习开球时,没有过网就是做push up五下。每次比赛时,他都会在场外乱叫,乱骂。

有一次,我们比赛时打赢了,他还是照样骂我们。骂完后,他转身就走。我们就扮鬼脸,有些还比了中指给他。教练突然间回头,他说 “我的头后面其实有长眼睛的,你们不知道吗?” 就这样继续被骂。

打球的那些日子,是我非常怀念的。我们球员之间都很好,常常都会在一起。但奇怪的是,我小学的好朋友,都不是我的队员们,哈哈。唯一不好的是我小学打了三年的球,骂粗口也骂了三年。想起时,还有一点不好意思。幸亏都改掉了。:)

上了中学,背后一直都很痛,所以就没有再打了. 排球让我学习了团队精神, 因为不合作那球根本打不好, 还有就是纪律. 我曾经在家里每一天原地dig一百下的球. 这里有一点像在写作文, 题目是 打排球的好处, 哈哈. 没有啦,这些都是真的, 打的时候没有觉得到, 但现在长大了回想起时, 真的好像有从中体会到一些什么的.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

发泄

除了用文字,我找不到另外一个更加文明的方式来发泄了。我实在是受不了许许多多在我身边的人的做事方式。我在这里要先申明,我不是要说我是完美的,我只是想把我的看法写出来,发泄我的不满。若有任何一个人认为我是错的,我随时欢迎你留个言,或打电话来反驳我。:D

首先,我最不满意就是做东西最后一分钟的人。我最近也是这样,paper十点早上要交上,我五点早上才写,所以我以后会尽量避免。但是,如果那是你的功课,你没交上,损失的是你自己,不会影响其他人。那没关系啊,不会害死别人。那如果你是要人家帮你做事,而那件事根本不会让那个人受益。小姐,你是在欠我人情eh. 你是要叫我帮你做吃力不讨好的东西,你怎么可以在星期五晚上八点钟发那张email, 然后星期六早上要准备好那些东西?你有没有觉得你有一点过分?我知道我好欺负,但是你真的过分了.你让我觉得你是个很没用的领导者,星期日开会所说的东西,你星期五才来summarize and recap,会不会有一点太迟?

二,我最不满意不负责任的人。明明第二天有球赛,前一晚的练习你缺席,原因是因为你要去购物。更严重的是,你至少也要打个电话跟我说啊。大家不来练习,根本不会跟我说,还要我打电话去请问你,你觉得这样ok吗?若换你们做队长,换你们做社长,你会喜欢你的属下这样对你吗?做东西要有交待,知道吗?你们没有做过负责人,你们不懂我们的苦衷。

三,我很不满意跟贪小便宜的人。我不知道这个算不算贪小便宜,还是只是因为我笨。有很多人拿了政府的奖学金出国念大学,明明签了合约要回去替他们工作,但是毕业后,根本没有心要那么做。说政府工作薪水少,说政府工作很辛苦。但是,你当初拿这个奖学金时,你根本完全了解这个交易,他给你钱念书,你替他工作。但是,毕业后你就一直想要跑,这样的心理对吗?或许你会觉得政府没有工作给你,但是,你有这样的心理是你错在先, 是你要用了人家就逃跑。或许你会认为我们的友族同胞亏待我们的人,但是,你怎样说还是欠人家人情啊。你用人家的钱,就不能讨厌人,若你那么不满政府,你根本不应该接受它给的利益。说到底,人家也是给你一片土地,安全平安的长大,没有战争,没有天灾。你还要什么呢?你看看别人的国家,人家吃泥土长大好不好?这不是你应得的,要记住。世界上,没有任何一件东西,是你应得的,记住。还有,这个世界上没有完全公平的东西的。无论你住上哪一个国家,不会每一个人都有同样的待遇。有饭吃,有家住,你就要谢天谢地了。可能我是很容易满足的人,很笨的小孩。但是,要记得,不知足是一切痛苦的根源。

四,我很不满意不注意卫生的人。为何有人可以穿没有洗的白衣服出门?那个白衣服,已经变米黄色了!!!!!我的天。然后,还可以很明显的看到头皮屑,牙齿上有深黄色的污垢,没有穿袜子,没有绑鞋带,没有洗澡!!!!!!可以有一个人去告诉他吗?

很长了,暂时这样子吧。我不是要刻意伤害任何人,在此先附上一句对不起。

久违了

对那些有常来我部落格浏览的朋友们,久违了。 :D 我之前还口口声声说会常来法帖子, 我骗的. 哈哈哈. 没有啦, 只是最近真的太忙了,常常会在lab,所以真的没有时间。虽然没有考试,但是很多功课。所以,希望你们不要对我抱那么高的期望啦。

Friday, October 17, 2008

Dream School

I used to dream of getting into Stanford to do my graduate studies. But I gave up this dream due to various reasons about six months ago and decided to go back to Singapore to do grad school. Two hours ago, for an unknown reason, I have the sudden urge to go to this school:

Gerstner Sloan-Kettering Graduate School of Biomedical Sciences, which is a sub category of the Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center.


amm-dui.... -_-" SIGH.

Friday, October 10, 2008

至我親愛的母親和小姑

在異鄉遊子的睡夢中
看見世上最美的笑容
深深的皺紋是愛的痕跡
溫暖的手心撫摸著受傷的我

在慢慢成長的歲月裡
總是辜負了你的叮嚀
而你的寬容像大海一樣
任由我乘風又破浪
追逐理想

夢裡的笑容
是我生命中的寄託
就像是懷抱大地的河流
夢是無限的感恩
愛是永遠的笑容
日復一日
寫著天長和地久

Friday, September 26, 2008

Five Years Ago, I Would Not Know That...

my dreams to study in the States would come true.
I would give up my dream of wanting to study in Stanford.
I would have the guts to take the SAT, not to say even GRE.
I would achieve such outstanding results during my secondary school career.
falling in love hurt me so much.
I would meet so many new friends and new people.
I like to play badminton.
I can actually cook.
he would have left me behind.
he has actually inspired me to become a great scientist.
I would want to do research for all my life.
I would actually join Tzu Chi after I come to the States.
living in the States isn't as glamorous as everybody thinks.
I love staying in Malaysia so much.
I would give up my dreams for the sake of my family.
I would cry so much.
sleeping early and waking up early is not as hard as I thought.
Tzu Chi really influenced my thoughts so much and my thinking really matured. (Not doing any adverts here, but this is the truth)
there are actually so many people that care so much for me.
I would drift so far away from my secondary school friends.
I have such a great family.
I would write a blog.
I would actually regret not spending more time with him.
how life is like without talking on the phone every night.
how is it like to be contented with life.
I would be grateful to all the things I have.
I would be thankful to all the people I have come across in life.
I would stop losing temper uncontrollably.
I would become the person I am today.

There are a lot of things that I took five years to realize and learn. I regretted a lot. Talking about regret, a person shouldn't regret what he has done, instead, he should regret about what he has not yet done in his life. Have you actually sat down and thought about things you were thinking and wishing of five years ago? Did all of them come true? Do you have any regrets?