Thoughts..

Done with finals on the 15th, have been doing nothing, sleeping for 10 hours per day since then.

Have a lab report due before 25th for my dear MCDB 300.

Still going to lab everyday to take care of my worms.

Ren Jie asked me a thought provoking question "Are you leaving your worms alone when you go back for summer?" Actually, I don't really know.

I suddenly thought I have had too many years of school. Maybe I will work after I graduate, or maybe I can do volunteering for a year.

Probably I should have studied medicine instead of research in the first place.

Still waiting for overall grades to be out, which will determine whether Shann will get her free one-week-lunch.

Finally settled my money issue, thanks to those who helped along the way.

I should do something to flatten my tummy, or else I won't go back to Malaysia this summer.

Thank you Kai Kiat for the grocery trips for the whole year. Happy graduation. I'm waiting for your angpow~!!

Just started with packing up my stuff. Threw away a lot of my notes, and realized how much paper I have wasted.

Sorry to Pei Ying cos no celebration on her birthday, thanks to exams. But Happy 20th Birthday anyway.

Suddenly felt so not happy because when I wanted to talk to him this morning, he went yum cha instead.

Moving out from my apartment in less than a week's time. This apartment was kind of comfy and cosy.

Hopefully I can get enough people to play volleyball for Midwest Games. Spiker, make sure your ankle is functional by then.

I think I should get myself two more pair of jeans. I don't fit in those old ones anymore thanks to my tummy.

I suddenly thought that not doing PhD in the states is actually not a big deal at all.

Better start writing my report.

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Stress Build-up Week

Including today, I will have six more stressful days to go.

Finals on Friday, Monday and Tuesday.

I will be done on the 15th.

Wait for me..

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Tagged by Aunty Sue Yen

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
--> before 30, I hope. :P

2. What will you do when you feel really emo?
--> cry

3. What job are u doing now?
--> undergraduate lab researcher (not paid, but I'm doing it for credits) taking care of my worms

4.Where is the place that you want to go most?
--> home, of course

5.If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
--> to find a cure for cancer

6.Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
--> I believe now, but sometimes if I'm in a middle of a storm, I won't think that I can see the rainbow anymore

7.what are you afraid to lose the most right now?
--> my family

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
--> a good volleyball game and a meal of curry noodles prepared by Huey Shann. :D

9.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
--> depends on how he is feeling towards me

10.List out three good things of the person who tagged you.
--> cooks good food, a good listener when I needed someone to talk to, wears her specs in a cute way. :D

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
--> loves me, and able to talk to me when I need someone to talk to.

12.What type of person do you hate the most?
--> I am learning to love every human being

13.What would you do if you won a million dollars?
--> donate to NGOs and to those who need it

14.What would you wanna be after you're dead?
--> an angel who can heal the world and all living beings

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
--> lack of self confidence

16. what is your favourite color?
--> yellow

17.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
--> my family

18. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
--> talk to my dad

19. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?
--> spend time with my family and close friends

20. [qns that I added] What are the places that you want to visit right now?
--> Pulau Sipadan, Seychelles Island, The Maldives, Tibet, Egypt, Taiwan, The North Pole

** I don't feel like tagging anyone right now, but anybody who feels like answering the questions above can do so in their blogs. :)

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Forgive, Let Go and Forget

To forgive, to let go and to forget.

This is the art that I have been wanting to master since a long time ago, but have not fully succeeded yet.

I realized that I have quite an amount of training lately.

I want to master this art so badly.

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Dilemma

I have this serious dilemma since a long time ago and it has been haunting me since.

I DON'T KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD GO TO GRADUATE SCHOOL.

I know I don't need to capitalize every word, but then, it's such a hard decision to make.

Choices are as below:
1) Do PhD in the U.S.
2) Do Masters in the U.S. then go back M'sia to work.
3) Do PhD in Singapore
4) Do PhD in M'sia.
5) Go back M'sia to work right after getting undergraduate degree.

Thinking about this issue makes me sweat a lot, as in, even more than if I go run a hundred rounds at NCRB. I will be graduating April 09, so I need a decision FAST. If I so happen to decide to stay in the states to do my graduate school, I will need to study for my GRE test this spring/summer, which is so so so soon.

I think I burnt part of my brain thinking which path to take.

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平常心

最近做事情，心情平静得多，晚上也比较能入眠。我也不知道为什么。无论如何，是一件好事。：）

今天早上刚刚考了第二次的biochemistry 考试，真的以平常心去考。这可能是我生平中第一次那么冷静的考试。哈哈。我不觉得是我准备得好，但我就是那么平静。两三天后，我们就可以看到我的冷静的效果。希望我也可以平常心地接受我的成绩。哈哈。

难得今天早从科学室回家，趁机会去游个泳吧！星期一还有一个考试，还没开始温习。但是不用紧，平常心。。。 哈哈哈哈~！

为什么？

其实，我不要求什么，只想要有一个答案。

我只想懂为什么。。。